lorenge22

things have been going really well lately...i got back in to some old habits but once i came clean, everything became so much better. i am smiling more and laughing. i am happier than i have ever been. my friends are actually kind of scared b/c i am never like this! but ya...i uploaded some photos...i look at everyone elses and really wanted some of my own up here! i love this sight so much! im glad i found it! anywho...hope you like the pics!

i feel like i have been depressed for years and years and years. it doesnt seem to want to go away. i have my good days of course but the bad ones always out way the good ones. i feel so alone it hurts. i find joy in close to nothing now. at least not in the things i thought i did. ive become dependant on things that i shouldnt and started doing things that i always told myself that i wouldnt. i am seeking help...but will it help? my fear is that i will spent my entire life alone, depressed, hurt, and afraid. i dont want to end up like that. i cant end up like that.